2.01.2011
Freeze Life
Do you ever have those days when you feel like doing nothing but your favorite thing? Yeah, I'm having one of those days. I just feel like I have so much to think about and not enough brain to think about it. I really just want to clean right now. I know that sounds crazy because who likes to clean.? I do. I love it to death and I would do it all day if I didn't have to go to school and do homework. I just want to clean and then go to bed, but I have so much homework to do and so much to stress over. Sometimes I just wish I could freeze life. Just stop all the stresses and be able to do whatever I want without having to think about my future and all the things I have to get done. There's not a day that goes by when I don't think about how am I going to get into BYU and how am I going to get all this homework done. I just want to be in college so I can feel like I'm actually doing something for my life. I guess right now I feel super unmotivated because nothing is going right and school is hard and I'm constantly surrounded by losers who only talk about all the trouble they got in or the problems they're having with their boyfriend. I guess what it really comes down to is that I am tired and feel like I'm not becoming a better person at all because I am in a school of losers and freaks that I have nothing in common with. I also want to be in college at BYU so I can make lots of friends that share the same values as me and understand why I do the things I do.
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oh my gosh I know exactly what you mean... not necessarily the cleaning part, but the do what you love doing just to get away- freezing all problems and just making time for yourself to gather your thoughts. I cannot WAIT until BYU because then we will see each other soooo sooo much!!! sure love ya
ReplyDeleteI want to freeze life also so that you could always live with me.
ReplyDeleteThis is seriously the story of my life. Except for the cleaning part. And I don't really want to go to BYU...but you get the idea.
ReplyDeleteTHIS is exactly what I have been struggling with.Glad to know I'm not the only one.
Mom, you're creepy. Melissa and Rachel I am glad that I have people that agree with me. :)
ReplyDeleteJust hang in there Caitlin. College is a lot different from high school. But it's just as much drama, more stress and a lot dirtier. Just do you your best and progress on your own. You can become a better person each day all by yourself, even when you're surrounded by idiots. Remember to have faith. BYU is great. But so is a lot of stuff about MC, san diego, and being around people who push your standards to keep you at your best. Don't get discouraged :)
ReplyDeleteSTORY OF MY LIFE!!! haha Life is just so crazy right now! I totally know how you feel!
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